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Getting weaker weekly

Its been prwtty hard to stay optimistic lateky as weak as I have been
Im not lazy and I have evwn tried to exercise some but after 2 mib cant breathe then get so exhaustwd have to sleep a few hours.
I have been eating as much as can and aftwr weeks of eating morw then havw in months before I am unable to gain 1 pound is dwpressing if honest.  I was always the ambitious guy the guy who worked 100+ hour weeks my whole adult life without blinking an eye.  In my 20s was a fighter and trained constantly.  Running 10 miles a day was average for me.  Now I have trouble walkibg to the car, its pretty humbling and extremely frustrating at the same time.
Yesterday was another fathers day didnt see my son again and after 9 years ut still takes its toll on me not one day has passed the whole time I havent thought about him, even more so since his mother died I think
Gotta go fir now til nect tim

What a humbling 16 months

People shouldnt take rheir health for granted or for that matter not work at it you never know when you could lose it.

When I was 25 I had trained to go into Ufc and was able to do some pretty awesome feats of balance and strength and endurance.  I ran a marathon also.

I ha b e always had problems with my back but it was manageable.  Starting from less then 2 years ago ti l now I went from fairly healthy to now barely walking, constant 24/7pain, 6 surgeries since Nov 2011, 2 major and couple could have died.

Im not feeling sorry for myself I figure some of it is karma for how ruthless I was iny 20s, the point is you may not always be healthy or even alive tomorrow for that matter so dont take it for granted. 

Truth is I am tired of pain and after walking in these shoes for almost 40 years the weariness runs deep on every level but 9 years ago I met the love of my life and her and my kuds keep me going and wanting to wake up.

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Things peopke rake for granted

I think the thing people take most for granted is their health and I did too but trust me that can. Quickly change

Nature has a way of humbling you

Seems nature has ways to humble you.  2 years ago I wS fairly healthy other then back problems for ladt 20 years.
Then from Nov 2011 til and including now my health has gotten worse and worse.   I have had 3 surgeries about to have 4th next week.  I have lost 50 lbs. I have had so many ct scans, xrays, colonoscopies and similar I have lost count.
My RSD in feet is 10x worse back is worse and the problem with abdomen that stRted 10 months ago is now so bad I can barely walk from the pa I n.
I try not to whine there is always someone in worse shape but I am exhausted, weak and quite tired of living every day in terrible pain.
You are not invincible people I thought that way 15 years ago and now look...
Take care of yourselves,  spend as much time as can with your wife and child r en because you are NOT promised tomorrow or a long future.
If your in pain like I am hopefully you have a great spouse like I do to help you get through it.  Without my wife and kids I would have prob ate a bullet months ago.
If you have chronic pain and need to just whine or vent comment here, I t is OK to do so sometimes, I vent to my friends occasinally and it helps me not gdt depressed but you never eed good friends that will let you and support you.
I have a lung problem, rsd in feeet and hands, fibromyalgia, severe intestinal problems, high blood pressure, degenerative arthritis and few other health issues so I understand ling term daiky pain so if you need to vent, if you need to get the frustration off your chest I will listen, post it and we will support each other.

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